tribute to the writings of Christopher Poindexter. Part II

It is not so strange that what is real and necessary should frighten us so. Especially this, this most necessary of things that allows no dishonesty, no deception…that throws us naked into a complete trusting of ourselves and another…while the whole world, our bad experiences and statistics shout that it can not be…that we do not deserve such beauty, joy or peace…that we are broken and sick, and must resign ourselves to the fact that all we can hope to find are shatterings of ourselves.

“You want me to be completely honest?
I, always, have been terrified
of love. To slow dance with bliss
and the prevailing chance of complete
misery. Knowing that, it will either
save me or it will cripple me.
For if there is one thing beautiful
in this crumbling world: It is love.
The curling of souls.
But god, if there is one thing
horrific in it, too,
then it is mostly surely loving
something with your entirety
only to have it all vanish
away within the hit
of a second.”

How then not to fear? We can only go beyond the fear by loving, and yet to love we have to go beyond the fear.

“I admit,
I was afraid
to love.
Not just love,
but to love her.
For she was a stunning
mystery. She carried things
deep inside her that no one
has yet to understand,
and I,
I was afraid to fail,
like the others.

She was the ocean
and I was just a boy
who loved the waves
but was completely
terrified to
swim.”

But there are ways to rise above what is apparently impossible. There are those moments shared, unmeasured blessings and questions…important ones…that are answered.

to be continued

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One thought on “tribute to the writings of Christopher Poindexter. Part II

  1. I absolutely love the juxtaposition of your stories and feelings with Poindexter’s poetry. In a way, I think this is what he wants- to touch people, and make them realize the true beauty in their lives. Great job!

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